Instead I had blueberries and almond milk! It was fantastic and I’m not upset in the least!

WHOA will power!!!

sweaty post-softball pic!

No insanity today because of the hour and a half practice we just had.  On top of that, my tub is leaking hot water, which means that my hot water tank is drained completely and so my showers are FREEZING COLD.

YUCK.  Refreshing, but yuck. 
On the bright side though, working out outside is giving me a great tan, love the summer weather!!!

Whoa super use of acronyms there, sorry team… BUT I just bought rackable weights today to start p-90x! They will be in Thursday, so we are postponing a week… or maybe I will just start with what I have? IDK, but I’M PUMPED.

That’s what matters

long update post coming soon

As of Monday, Boyfrand and I are starting P90X, it’s time for a new summer workout routine, for new workout pictures of the day, for a new me!!!

PUMPED

Loves, I’m sorry.  The last week has kept me so busy. 

You will get a full post on it soon. Lots to tell (trip to Montreal, amazing long weekend, terrifying moment when my mom ended up in the hospital today, etc.)

For now though, off to get some work done and then dinner with my g-pa!

love y’all lots

muah muah

Everyday starts off with the best intentions but then I start to slide after dinner time and by the time I’ve gone to bed I’ve ruined the day.
I’m working really hard to break that cycle though so hopefully I get back in control.
Has anyone ever had this happen to them, that they have all the motivation in the world one day and the next it’s just gone??

And, because this should be appreciated by everyone, ALL of our favorite runners!

I HATE THEM.

They suck, they hurt, they’re hard, and they WORK.  This morning I got up at 6 and by 6:15 I was out the door, biking 2 km to the bottom of the hill.  Every race has hills, and every time, they kill me.  It’s time I take control of that. This hill is interesting.  It’s long, and it’s gradually steep, and although it looks so pretty, it hurts like Hell.  THEN there are also grassy hills up the sides that are steep and short and also killer.  This morning I did both.

I’m proud of myself. 

Last night I had a minor binge again, I just couldn’t make myself full… I’ve rid the house of anything I wouldn’t eat on a normal day or wouldn’t be able to control myself eating.  I’m doing this and it feels great.

First off, it’s at 3 1/2 km bike ride to and from the field.  Also, our team is so accepting, I LOVE IT! No matter what, if you’re trying you’re doing great!  We played for an hour and a half, and I had a blast, then biked home and now I’m just chilling.

Tomorrow morning I have a date with a friend to do hill sprints

you all should know, hill sprints are the bane of my existence, they terrify me, but I also know they are the BEST way to build endurance, speed, and strength.

We’re biking to the hill, doing sprints, killing ourselves, then biking home.

BRING IT ON!!!

I’m doing intramural softball!!! Our first game is tonight and I’m so pumped. It’s something to get me physically active, as well as have a TON of fun!

SO pumped!

I ate way too much at my friends party.  Chips, and dip, and deserts, and pasta when I got home… MISTAKES. 

Today is a new day however, time to start fresh and fix the mistakes I made yesterday.

Just got back home from church and mothers day brunch with the fam-jam.  It was nice, and surprisingly I ate really well! I had steak and eggs (the eggs were poached) then I substituted fresh fruit and tomatoes for the toast and homefries.  I’m so beyond stuffed right now though, but that’s great because I work the entire afternoon so who knows when/ if I’ll get to eat again.

I hope everyone is having a happy mothers day, time to quickly clean things up here then head off to work!

lots of love, xoxo

Bummed that the caps lost. Bummed that I’m not happy with my night. Bummed that it seems like whenever I’m home I’m not respected by my family. Bummed that people let you down. Bummed…

You know what though, being bummed gets you no where. Letting people get you down just allows them to win. It’s not with it.

I’m not bummed with myself and I’m sick of being bummed because I’d others. I’m proud of me. Proud if the work that I’ve put in. Proud of the self control I’ve shown. Proud of my success thus far. Proud that for once it’s not about the scale but about health and happiness.

So, I guess, as bummed as I am, I’m prouder with me, and that is what matters.

Today’s Daily Attempt at Looking Skinny: bubble dress and new sunglasses edition!
Not bad if I say so myself!

progress/ Today’s Daily Attempt at Looking Skinny

I was nervous about putting this dress on today.  The last time I wore it, in the middle of March, I couldn’t leave the top snap done up because of the big gaping whole it created. It was tight in all the wrong places and honestly I looked terrible that night because of it.

I put it on today and it fits! PROPERLY I might add.  I feel great! Things are going in the right direction and sometimes you need to remind yourself of the progress you’ve made, regardless of how close or far from your UGW you are.